It's my last week of work, hence I reckon that I should be feeling enthusiastic to give my all. But, somehow I am just not feeling it at all......
Anyway, there isn't much to do. Of course, there are still writings to be done, but the amount is still comprehensible.
Elsy invited me to lunch as it's my last week here at Eric Pringle. However, I am actually feeling intimidated by that gesture. I wonder why. Ahahahaha =) I guess eating with my superior makes me feel so 'small'
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
Things that made my day
In no particular order.....
1. David Cook is the winner for this year American Idol. Yay! It's the cook that rules the kitchen.
2. "You have a lot for a 21-year-old." - anonymous
3. Catching up with friends at Chee Liang's 21st birthday.
4. Making new friends.
5. An amazing adventure for this weekend. What makes it even more special.. is because I am doing it with my close friends. It's gonna be fun! =)
6. Staying over at Est's place.
7. Because today is Friday.
8. I wanna go here: http://www.pangkorlautresort.com/index.htm
You know, they have an infinity pool. That is so cool... but, it's freaking expensive. (jaw drop!)
9. Today's train ride was not boring because I have someone to talk to. She told me that shopping at Indonesia is freaking cheap. ahahhahaha..... that reminds me of Bangkok. I miss that place so much. I wanna go back there again.
Hopefully, there are more to come....
1. David Cook is the winner for this year American Idol. Yay! It's the cook that rules the kitchen.
2. "You have a lot for a 21-year-old." - anonymous
3. Catching up with friends at Chee Liang's 21st birthday.
4. Making new friends.
5. An amazing adventure for this weekend. What makes it even more special.. is because I am doing it with my close friends. It's gonna be fun! =)
6. Staying over at Est's place.
7. Because today is Friday.
8. I wanna go here: http://www.pangkorlautresort.com/index.htm
You know, they have an infinity pool. That is so cool... but, it's freaking expensive. (jaw drop!)
9. Today's train ride was not boring because I have someone to talk to. She told me that shopping at Indonesia is freaking cheap. ahahhahaha..... that reminds me of Bangkok. I miss that place so much. I wanna go back there again.
Hopefully, there are more to come....
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Demotivated
I am freaking angry. There is no amount of words that can describe what I am feeling right now. I personally think that people should not take advantage of others. Tak tanya pun whether I have alot of work to do also, just dump it to me. Dah-lah, I have alot to do right now. Dumping miscellanous work to me proves that (O----<) is just so lazy! Simply making use of people.
ARgggggghhhhh.. i just can't freaking tolerate with people like this. Should I stand up for myself? I have no idea why am I asking myself this question as I've just ranted about how I feel.
(Swee Ling, you are such a coward!)
ARgggggghhhhh.. i just can't freaking tolerate with people like this. Should I stand up for myself? I have no idea why am I asking myself this question as I've just ranted about how I feel.
(Swee Ling, you are such a coward!)
A Quick Bite
1. Two more weeks, or less, and I am out-of-here. I don't exactly hate being there. Nevertheless, I think it's time.
2. I hope that I can get my butt to office tomorrow earlier than usual to finish one of the post event releases that I've been avoiding to write. Reason being, I just can't seem to figure out how am I going to angle the story. Till now I have no freaking idea also. I am just praying (really hard) I will think of something tomorrow morning.
3. I want to attend a PC before I leave. ahahaha.. =) Maybe I'll ask my boss tomorrow whether I can go with her to the PC tomorrow. Just to "ke-po" and see how they conduct a PC. So "ulu" of me. I know.
4. I can't wait for June 26 to come. I'll be flying off to Singapore.
5. One good news is better than none I guess
5. I want to have an ice-cream that doesn't melt!
6. I can't seem to find time to exercise. My yoga mat is collecting dust. I think I am taking work as an excuse not to attend class. Well, can't blame me also... coz these days going to Klang town is like travelling to Subang (last time). The jam here is just unbearable anymore. 30 minutes just to get to yoga class. Perhaps I should change my class to their new venue at Bukit Tinggi. I do exercise actually. But, it's not enough for me. I gained weight easily. Yeah, gotta admit I have body issues, weight issues with myself for as long as I can remember! *sob*sob*
7. My car is not back yet. Sigh! =(
8. Hearing Eva makes me think that my job is not as bad as hers. Nothing comes easy in life! *hugz eva tightly*
9. Esther is 21 oledi! ahahahhaa.. Aunty ET =p
10. I want to look for a part time job for next month. Those promoter kinda jobs where they pay like 100-120 a day. Well, I think if it's Klang, I don't mind getting paid 80 a day. I am so desperate. ahahahhaa... I want to save for my tripS
(wake up early tomorrow swee ling.... )
2. I hope that I can get my butt to office tomorrow earlier than usual to finish one of the post event releases that I've been avoiding to write. Reason being, I just can't seem to figure out how am I going to angle the story. Till now I have no freaking idea also. I am just praying (really hard) I will think of something tomorrow morning.
3. I want to attend a PC before I leave. ahahaha.. =) Maybe I'll ask my boss tomorrow whether I can go with her to the PC tomorrow. Just to "ke-po" and see how they conduct a PC. So "ulu" of me. I know.
4. I can't wait for June 26 to come. I'll be flying off to Singapore.
5. One good news is better than none I guess
5. I want to have an ice-cream that doesn't melt!
6. I can't seem to find time to exercise. My yoga mat is collecting dust. I think I am taking work as an excuse not to attend class. Well, can't blame me also... coz these days going to Klang town is like travelling to Subang (last time). The jam here is just unbearable anymore. 30 minutes just to get to yoga class. Perhaps I should change my class to their new venue at Bukit Tinggi. I do exercise actually. But, it's not enough for me. I gained weight easily. Yeah, gotta admit I have body issues, weight issues with myself for as long as I can remember! *sob*sob*
7. My car is not back yet. Sigh! =(
8. Hearing Eva makes me think that my job is not as bad as hers. Nothing comes easy in life! *hugz eva tightly*
9. Esther is 21 oledi! ahahahhaa.. Aunty ET =p
10. I want to look for a part time job for next month. Those promoter kinda jobs where they pay like 100-120 a day. Well, I think if it's Klang, I don't mind getting paid 80 a day. I am so desperate. ahahahhaa... I want to save for my tripS
(wake up early tomorrow swee ling.... )
Friday, May 16, 2008
Sensitive - nya me
Sometimes I wonder why am I so sensitive. It doesn't bring any good to me at all. Period.
Monday, May 12, 2008
The Choice
I just realised that I cannot read "emo" book. Reading 'The Choice' by Nicholas Sparks somehow makes me think too much about my life. The emotion is just unbearable that I am not too sure how am I suppose to swallow it down my throat. This overwhelming thought has been clouding my mind for too long, and it's not doing any good to me as I can't seem to concentrate on my work, on the things that I am supposed to do, on almost everything.
How far would you go in the name of love? It's such a subjective question. Beyond that, there are so many issues questioned by Sparks that seem to speak to me since I finished the book.
Even as I was reading it, I feel so sad and confused with my own predicament. Why? Why at this point of time? Is god trying to give me some hints about my life? Urrrghhh.. i just hate it when I am in a state of confusion.
This morning, I decided to read another book so that I can forget about the former. But, I still can't seem to get this feeling out of me. And, it's just too much to bear at this point. At the same time, I am afraid to read another book - I am feeling extremely apprehensive that it will bring me more questions. I don't think I am able to face more questionable things.
Anyway, reading The Choice ...... makes me feel like it's worth taking chances, following your heart, knowing someone for a short period doesn't mean that there isn't any love or future. It's like, your heart always speaks the truth, your mind always tells you otherwise. I find that our heart is such a powerful annotation of what lies beneath our true feelings and emotions. Beyond anything else, our heart sometimes tell us of things that we wish that we do not know. When in times like this, we realised that our heart exerts a certain prerogative power beyond what what we can imagine; and, we as human are afraid to accept it (well, maybe it's only me).
I've always tell my friends that: It's easier to advise people on the next best step to take, on the best solution to a problem and all, but when it comes to our life, we are just as weak as they are. Why is that so? So often, we encourage people to step up, to follow what they think it's right, to do what they think they should, to gain what they think they deserve, but when we are placed on the same spot as them, we are just like them - weak and vulnerable. We are unable to make the next wise step, or even have the courage to follow what our heart and mind dictate us to do.
I don't think I have the same courage as Gabby. Even if I somehow feel like I can, should or need, I wonder whether one day I will.
How far would you go in the name of love? It's such a subjective question. Beyond that, there are so many issues questioned by Sparks that seem to speak to me since I finished the book.
Even as I was reading it, I feel so sad and confused with my own predicament. Why? Why at this point of time? Is god trying to give me some hints about my life? Urrrghhh.. i just hate it when I am in a state of confusion.
This morning, I decided to read another book so that I can forget about the former. But, I still can't seem to get this feeling out of me. And, it's just too much to bear at this point. At the same time, I am afraid to read another book - I am feeling extremely apprehensive that it will bring me more questions. I don't think I am able to face more questionable things.
Anyway, reading The Choice ...... makes me feel like it's worth taking chances, following your heart, knowing someone for a short period doesn't mean that there isn't any love or future. It's like, your heart always speaks the truth, your mind always tells you otherwise. I find that our heart is such a powerful annotation of what lies beneath our true feelings and emotions. Beyond anything else, our heart sometimes tell us of things that we wish that we do not know. When in times like this, we realised that our heart exerts a certain prerogative power beyond what what we can imagine; and, we as human are afraid to accept it (well, maybe it's only me).
I've always tell my friends that: It's easier to advise people on the next best step to take, on the best solution to a problem and all, but when it comes to our life, we are just as weak as they are. Why is that so? So often, we encourage people to step up, to follow what they think it's right, to do what they think they should, to gain what they think they deserve, but when we are placed on the same spot as them, we are just like them - weak and vulnerable. We are unable to make the next wise step, or even have the courage to follow what our heart and mind dictate us to do.
I don't think I have the same courage as Gabby. Even if I somehow feel like I can, should or need, I wonder whether one day I will.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Coming to an end
It's really amazing thinking about the first day when I started working. Everything seems to be out of placed as I try to push myself to comprehend the amount of work I have every single day. March was absolutely crazy, April was so-so, May is back to square one.
I think I have seem to live up with it, and the thought of my work coming to an end makes me feel sad a little. Nevertheless, I think I am ready to leave. I guess one point that is making me feeling down is the fact that I won't be getting any pay from next month onwards. Cash?! ahahahhaa.. =(
But, I am barely 21. Hence, I think I should not be working my a** off. With the unceasingly staring at the computer and late nights at work, I think I am going to look older than 21.
However, sometimes I question myself whether this is running away from fact of life? Trying to shut the reality out of my system is what I am attempting to do right now. I wish I have the capacity and ability to just buy myself a damn good SLR camera, pack lightly, book tickets, and embark on an adventure of a lifetime.
My boss doesn't mind to take me in as a permenant staff. It's tempting thinking about it because I am thinking and calculating that, if i work 2-3 more years and be a senior account executive, I will be earning about RM2600 - 2800. And, by the time I have 6-7 years more of experience, I can demand a pay of about RM5k - 6k ( I hope). Well, I think with 7 years experience, one can be an account manager and if you are really good, I think one can be an account director. Isn't that pretty good? I mean at that time I'll be like about 28 - 30 years old only. Earning Rm5k - Rm6k seems to be decent. Then and again, that is my own assumption. But, if there's a will, there's a way right, I believe.
Anyway, I am just procrastinating. I have work to do. But, as usual, I am bored of writing things about one client only. It's killing me. I would love to do writings for other clients as well.
Sigh!
Sigh!
Sigh!
I think I am more mature and independent now. However, life has been really hard lately. Maybe it has always been hard, but I managed to suck up and put on a brave face to embrace all that is around me. But, please understand me. I am just like any other people; sometimes, that is as much as I can take and digest!
p/s: Thank you Esther, Cyrus and Miranda for coming over to KLCC to have lunch with me. I am so touched and blessed for having friends like you. I miss all of you so much. Though I know that we do not meet that often anymore, and I can feel like there is a gap between us, I hope we can still be friends like how we used to be. I am being such a kid right now! *hugz tightly* You know, I wanted to hug you all before I leave, but I told myself better not. Because huging you all makes me feel sad. Saying bye is so hard even if it's temporary goodbye. I am so emo right now! -_- *sob*sob*
Back to work!!! =(
I think I have seem to live up with it, and the thought of my work coming to an end makes me feel sad a little. Nevertheless, I think I am ready to leave. I guess one point that is making me feeling down is the fact that I won't be getting any pay from next month onwards. Cash?! ahahahhaa.. =(
But, I am barely 21. Hence, I think I should not be working my a** off. With the unceasingly staring at the computer and late nights at work, I think I am going to look older than 21.
However, sometimes I question myself whether this is running away from fact of life? Trying to shut the reality out of my system is what I am attempting to do right now. I wish I have the capacity and ability to just buy myself a damn good SLR camera, pack lightly, book tickets, and embark on an adventure of a lifetime.
My boss doesn't mind to take me in as a permenant staff. It's tempting thinking about it because I am thinking and calculating that, if i work 2-3 more years and be a senior account executive, I will be earning about RM2600 - 2800. And, by the time I have 6-7 years more of experience, I can demand a pay of about RM5k - 6k ( I hope). Well, I think with 7 years experience, one can be an account manager and if you are really good, I think one can be an account director. Isn't that pretty good? I mean at that time I'll be like about 28 - 30 years old only. Earning Rm5k - Rm6k seems to be decent. Then and again, that is my own assumption. But, if there's a will, there's a way right, I believe.
Anyway, I am just procrastinating. I have work to do. But, as usual, I am bored of writing things about one client only. It's killing me. I would love to do writings for other clients as well.
Sigh!
Sigh!
Sigh!
I think I am more mature and independent now. However, life has been really hard lately. Maybe it has always been hard, but I managed to suck up and put on a brave face to embrace all that is around me. But, please understand me. I am just like any other people; sometimes, that is as much as I can take and digest!
p/s: Thank you Esther, Cyrus and Miranda for coming over to KLCC to have lunch with me. I am so touched and blessed for having friends like you. I miss all of you so much. Though I know that we do not meet that often anymore, and I can feel like there is a gap between us, I hope we can still be friends like how we used to be. I am being such a kid right now! *hugz tightly* You know, I wanted to hug you all before I leave, but I told myself better not. Because huging you all makes me feel sad. Saying bye is so hard even if it's temporary goodbye. I am so emo right now! -_- *sob*sob*
Back to work!!! =(