When we were young

When we were younger
We used to pretend
Pretend to be who we wanna be
Pretend to be where we wanna be
Pretend to be what we wanna be

As we grow older
Pretending seems to be a tiring affair
We just wanna be who we wanna be
We just wanna be where we wanna be
We just wanna be what we wanna be

We seem to distance ourselves from the fairytale
From that fantasy of how life would be
All we seek for is just a form of simplicity
If we do not know what the future holds
We just care about now
For as long as the mind is at ease
The heart is contented
We think we can stand firmly on the ground

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Currently going crazy just by reading the first three pages of Todd Oakley's article

conceptual blending theories?
conceptual integration?
linguistic meaning and textual hermeneutics?
simulations semantics?

Patience! I know I will get this. They usually make simple things complicated. Really! Just like the previous KVL's chapters......

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Why?

The dictionary tells me that 'why' is used when people seeks for a reason, a purpose or an explanation.

A Picture

I am not too sure if it was just me or not. Initially, I thought that it would be an 'easy peasy' task to look for a picture to critique. Having spent days and hours looking through pictures after pictures, I realised that I was very wrong .

All along the way, I reckoned that the whole process of selecting a picture was unduly time consuming because I was looking for a picture that is artistically akin to me. Practically, I shouldn't be doing that because there are many other assignments waiting for me. So, if I can actually find a picture that consists of 3 elements and principles respectively, I should be jumping with joy and move on with the writing process. Me, being me, I somehow just refuse to do so. Anyway, I am very satisfied now that I've found the 'one'. The time and effort spent were all worthwhile.

They say that an 'artist' visual composition at a given point of time often reflects their current state of mind. I think it's absolutely true. In my opinion, for a picture to stand on its own without having to provide a descriptive account reflects that the picture has a universal appeal. Meaning that the picture brings a form of relationship to the 'viewer 'simply because once upon a time the viewer have felt maybe not exactly, but similar feelings as the 'artist'. Or it could be that the 'viewer' is currently enveloped in that particular moment. You know when that overwhelming euphoria comes rushing to your heart when you stare at picture that seems to reverberate your emotion?

Maybe like the picture below? Lolx =)

- Reaching for the sky -

Feel like I've been trampled

As I am typing away, the smell of the moist banana cake still lingers in my mouth. I am suppose to start on my assignment, but my mind is scattered recklessly all over an empty room. I do not know where should I begin. Everyday we unconsciously or consciously prepare a "to-do" list. At the end of the day, we will review the list to see what have we accomplished and what we have to catch up for the very next day. Lately, it feels as though my "to-do" list of the past can't seem to be completed as much as I would like to.

See... I can't even continue writing because I do not even know where should I start...

Maybe I do know where I should start, but I am just questioning myself whether do I really need to do this...

To tell

To explain

To share

Where are my rights as a human in this world that is so big that I can barely hug it with both my bare hands?

I am that tiny relatively compare to the size of this universe.

But, how come I feel like I am supposed to carry the entire world on my shoulder?

Lately, one lawfully lesson that I have learned is that I am not supposed to fall in love freely.

Yes, you read it right - a 'lawfully' lesson. Since when is there a law when it comes to love? I do not know. Don't ask me! I am told so. Hence, should I just digest that law and embed it into my life?

I didn't thought that I will turn 21 in this way ...

Maybe, god is giving me a very memorable lesson before I turn 21.

You see, it's not easy to change a person behaviour, attitude, disposition, so on and so forth especially when one is hitting the era of being a 'young adult'. Hence, for one to be accused of not being the same person as she is anymore is rightfully and lawfully unfair to her because she belongs to herself! It feels like I've been ripped of my freedom and right as a normal human being in this world.

You know what will be a great fix for this feeling right now?

Hiding underneath the blanket with the rain beating rhythmically at the background or maybe a hot bubble bath with all the lights off so that I can just escape. Even if it's a temporarily escape, I will just seize it!