Congrats =)

"Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to"

-Don't let me fall by Lenka-

Of traffic jam and pizza

The title of the post is of traffic jam and pizza simply because today's traffic was bad but I think the pizza for dinner made up the day because they were really delicious. =) Or could it be because I haven't had any pizza for a very long time? Nah, I think the pizza was good and so was the mushroom soup which comes with an 'added' ingredient. AHAHAHA =) Anyway, I haven't thanked you for the meal. So, thanks alot!

It's scary thinking about the future that I am not sure of. Everything seems so bleak as I am yet to discover where my true fulfillment lies. As I've only tried my hands in the PR field, I intend to keep my options open as there are many other industries that I would love to experiment. I am pretty confident that when the right time comes, there will be a job that I will be dying to do. However, before I start investing my heart and soul to my job, I would want to travel for awhile if time and money permits. I just think that when I start selling myself to my job, it will be hard to take a break to do the things that I enjoy doing because no boss will allow their employees to go missing for a month or two or even more. It's risky at the same time as well .. if you get what I mean.

At the same time, I don't think I want to work for people till I'm 50. It sounds so boring!-_- I want to earn enough to set up my own cafe. I even have a concept and picture in mind. It will be very satisfying if my dream translates into a reality. When I have my own cafe, then I will have more reasons to travel. It will be so exhilarating to travel to different countries,sampling the different types of coffees, pastries, pastas, sandwiches, ice-creams, chocolates, cakes, cupcakes, and many more. How could I forget about pizzas and hamburgers as well !!!! Haizzz, just the thought of bringing back tasty, mouth-watering recipes from around the world for my future customers to savor makes me feel so full. Sigh! Oh yeah, I can also look around for the different types of glassware, dinnerware, so on and so forth. And.. and...I can also scout for unique furniture to decorate the cafe. Doesn't all these sounds fun and exciting? One day ... one fine day I will spill the beans about this cafe of mine. ekekeke =)

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"Hmm... I would like to think that nothing detrimental will happen to the relationship. Well, at least I want to believe so, but I am not sure about you. I believe that if both have the heart and will to keep the relationship sailing, then it will grow and flourish. I believe that two people can grow up without growing apart when they can give and take with much understanding and compromising. They can be the strongest by being supportive and not be the weakest by being motivating. I believe that when two people give more than they can offer and ask for less then they can bargain, there will be a very strong relationship based on trust, respect, devotion, understanding, sacrifice - all of which are fundamentals to a relationship. I believe that for as long as we share the same dream and bury the same vision of the ending, trust me, nothing can come in the way."
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*p/s: I am craving for a cup of hot coffee. The thought of placing both my cold palms on the surface of the ceramic that exudes the warmness of the coffee makes me crave for it even more. It would be nice if there was someone to talk to at this hour, sipping coffee with me. *winks*

Sometimes

'All at Once' by The Fray




'Never Say Never' by The Fray




Such beautiful songs. And, they have an amazing new album. =)

Numbered thoughts (1)

I love writing things in point form, be it by drawing a tiny black dot next to it or the conventional 1, 2, 3, etc., I just like writing things in order because in that way I get my thoughts straight.

1. Today was my first day at college for my second semester/final year. It has been a whirlwind journey since my diploma years to where I am right now. Fleeting moments about the times where I was worried about the costs of my studies or how adamant I was to secure a scholarship to study abroad or even how I just wanted to go somewhere far away to study as an escapism or how dissapointed I was when I didn't achieve what I set myself to attain or the silent nights where I have to console myself that everything will turn out to be fine suddenly came gushing to me like a breeze. Fine is such an understatement. I know that I've always been the one seeking for perfection. As much as life experiences have taught me that nothing is perfect and that imperfection is the way that I can perfect myself, sometimes it is hard to swallow rejection and dejection because we are made that way. We certainly can't deny that.

2. Today, I decided to drive to college. I enjoy morning drives because I love the way the sun peeks out from beneath the cloud to greet me. I've always find that sight to be calming and it is at this sort of moments that I take time to think and reflect. As I walked into my first class, all I can see are strange faces. It freaks me out but it's not the first time anyway. Plus, the first semester of my degree was almost similar. Just like before, there are familiar faces but there isn't any 'old' faces that I longed for. I miss my friends! Nevertheless, live has to go on. I've started this journey with a very strong conviction that everything happens for a reason and if this is the way I have to travel, I shall just buckle up and embrace everything that is around and to make the best out of this journey. It certainly isn't easy convincing ourselves especially at times when there isn't anything to look forward to. Perhaps it's time to plan something so that I can motivate myself to work harder.

3. I think somewhere in this blog I've mentioned before that I used to be a very judgmental girl. I hope I've kicked off the habit of judging people for their actions, words or anything of that matter because these days I find it damn annoying that people are back stabbing or bitch talking way too much. I wish people will just keep their judgments to themselves. We can have opinions and it makes a hell lot of difference just in the way we convey our state of mind. I have to admit that sometimes I may be blunt with my comments or opinions as well, but sometimes too much means we've gone over board, over the line. Point blank is we have to know our limits. There's just certain lines that we should not cross.

4. Speaking about being judgmental, I've had several experiences on 'Never judge a book by its cover'. These life experiences have taught me that we need to allow ourselves a chance to know someone. Take time to talk to them only then there will be a chance where we'll get to dissect those little pieces that build the puzzle, and there will be a point where both paths are crossed. We can't simply paint descriptions of people based on their outlook. Yes, first impression matters and I am not denying that fact. However, everyone deserves a chance to be given a chance. It's just like when we apply for job. All we yearn for is a chance to be interviewed, to prove that we are worthy of the potential employer time and effort. If we ourselves are constantly seeking for chances, we should also learn to give people chances to prove themselves worthy of our love, time, companionship, trust and respect. As the one giving, we have to be patient; and as the one receiving, we have to learn to appreciate.

5.

You Are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: grumpy and stressed You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

I've always love coffee. As a matter of fact, I'm addicted to it. I just love the aroma of hot coffee and I love it even more when you know how to make my coffee the way I like it to be. I've always wanted to own one of those Starbucks coffee mugs that I can use it on a daily basis to keep my coffee warm and I can bring it with me wherever I go. Plus, I have so many morning classes and it will certainly come in handy. Sigh! I think I am only giving myself more reasons to buy unnecessary things.

6. Finally, I've made an effort to go back to my exercise classes. Yesterday was my first class after more than a year and today my body aches quite badly. This should be an indication that I am working out the right way and actually that also explains why I didn't attend today's class. HAHAHA. Thank god the time table is flexible. So, starting from this month I shall attend classes 3 times a week.

7. Nothing comes free in life but if I have to sacrifice at the expense of my stands in life, my happiness, my loved one, my true friends and myself for the sake of wealth, power and fame, I think it's absolutely unworthy. There are two sides of stories that often come and go - First, I am constantly reminded that there's no point doing something that I am not happy with even though the material reward seems so lucrative because at the end, I will just hate myself for giving in to those ridiculous demands of others. On another hand, I also have people telling me that I have to be practical and realistic because today's world is the 'dog-eat-dog' world and if I want to survive I've got to do what I am ought to do. Just suck up to everything and I will be fine because I will have enough money to survive. That's for sure I think, but what about other things in life like my future husband and children, my family and my friends. Will I still have them with me? Will they still like me for me? I know it's not easy because we can't simply satisfy every 'Tom, Dick and Harry' but I want to keep those people who matters to me as close to me as possible. I want to remain grounded despite all that I want to achieve. It's definitely not easy but it's achievable. I don't want to end up being the successfularrogantbitchy woman everyone talks about in town.

8. One of my major plans this year is to travel more !!! I hope that I will make an enormous effort to work out my travel plans. That's why for this semester I plan to work part-time while studying. I hope that I can look for a job with flexible working hours that comes with a decent pay. More importantly, I hope that the job makes me happy so that I do not dread going to work. It's tiring having to study and work at the same time but I am pretty sure the end reward will be a fulfilling one. I need to work if I want to travel. I want to travel hence I have to work. -_- Can someone tell me why I've never strike the jackpot? Sigh! Well, it's because I don't buy 4D. Silly me!

9. I have this tendency to have random thoughts out of the blue like when I am peeling the garlic, washing the plates, sweeping the floor (Omg, they all sound so domestic) ..

Till my next random thoughts, here's a verse of 'Let Me Take You There' by Plain White Tees

"I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there"

Was it by CHANCE ?

"Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful."

-A Walk to Remember-

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'A Walk to Remember' is one of Nicholas Sparks collection.
He never fails to ride to one's heart with his
soulful thoughts ...
inspiring words ...
and heartfelt stories ...
He did it once to my soul some time ago
Come to think of it,
I think I was provoked by him at that point of time
He brought me to face the TRUTH
that I've been avoiding for as long as I can remember