Currently

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
cause I'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
trying to see through the rain coming down
even though I'm not the only one
who feels the way I do.

I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
could you tell me what more do I need
and tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
but that's ok

I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
but I'm ready to fly..

I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Oh I'm just a girl
Oh I’m just a girl
Oh I’m just a girl

by Taylor Swift, A Place In This World

Coming up next: A birthday post!

Songs that I love

Just came back from Singapore two days ago. To sum it all up, the trip was very tiring. Things are expensive there. I can't help myself from thinking about the exchange rate whenever I want to buy something. Even when it comes to food! ahahhahaa =) All in all, I want to go back to Bangkok so that I can shop freely without thinking so much about the price. And, I can test my negotiation skills again. The thrill of negotiating, I like that!

Will post up some pictures of Singapore soon..... And I have pictures and videos of penguins. They are oh-so-adorable!!!!!

Anyway, just to share a few songs that I like. For what? Hmm.. for the fun of sharing! =)

1. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
The lyrics is so straight forward. And the rhythm and beat of the song is like one of the songs you can listen to again and again while lying on the beach. Ahhh.. so blissful. I think the new album by Jason Mraz is a really good album. He even has a duet with Colbie. The song is "Lucky". TWO Thumbs up!!!

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours 

2. Dream Catch Me - Newton Faulkner
I like the title of the song! But, the song is even nicer!!!!! I like this part of the song....

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going
Hold it close, won't let this go
Dream catch me yeah
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

3. Broken - Lifehouse
This song reminds me of days when we have doubts about things in our life. It's too sappy. Don't ever hear this song on a happy day. It has the power to ruin your mood and remind you of all those emotional struggle you have. So, only hear it when you are really emo -_-

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, I'll be ok

Hmmm... what else ya?

4. I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry
Ahahahaha..... when I first heard this song on the radio I was literally laughing my lungs out! The lyrics is very catchy, quirky in a very teasing manner as well. Lolx. Take a look at the lyrics...

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

Okie, I am lazy already. There are so many other songs that I like...... =) Oh... and I definitely love David Cook version of "Always Be My Baby". =) And and.. I also like Switchfoot - "This is home"... I also like Evan and Jaron - "Crazy for this girl" (I know this is cheesy, but I love Dawson Creek). One more before I go, I love Bon Jovi alot! I would love to go to their concert one day....


p/s: I am enjoying my holidays so much. I love bumming around doing nothing at all. =p

My tummy is growling

One of the setbacks of staying up late till this hour for no apparent reason is ........

I WILL HAVE CRAVINGS FOR FOOD. YOU NAME IT. I WANT IT!

This is bad I better go to bed now and dream of ........................

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p/s: You won't like me when I am hungry

I want my sushi tomorrow.
Oh wait, I mean later when I'm awake! =)
Japanese food is so good. Yum Yum!

I am still looking for what I love

I think my biological clock is somewhat screwed! It's close to 5 a.m now but I refuse to sleep. Yeah, I "refuse". My friends who are trying their best to finish their assignments are yearning to sleep while I refuse to sleep when I actually can. I think something must be wrong with me. Plus, I should actually sleep more because I reckon that once I am back at college, I will be deprived of sleep.

So, it has been confirmed that I will be going back to Taylor's to obtain my degree. As much as I would like to go somewhere else, I think I should just learn to count my blessings to be given a scholarship to study. In a way, at least my decision to work for about 5 months before going back to college was worth it. Actually, even if I did not get a scholarship, I would still think that what I have gained for the past months is priceless. For all that I have gone through; I think they are worthwhile.

You know, it's really so hard for me to determine what I love to do. I am very certain that I have not discover my true love. I don't think (or at least I hope I wont' be) I am one who is willing to compromise my enjoyment and contentment for money. Money is indeed an important survival commodity in today's world. And, by saying this, most of you will think that I am crazy. But, honestly, after working in a real public relations environment, I am not sure whether my heart belongs there. As much as I think I can be good and better at what I do, I always, always question myself whether working in the public relations line is where I want to go. Hence, I ended up asking myself countless times about my degree. At the very beginning, I was like, as long as I get a scholarship to pursue my degree, then everything will be alright. However, when I managed to get a scholarship, I then went on to doubt about my choice for degree.

I will be going back to Taylor's come this 31^st July. I really hope that along the way, I will discover and rediscover more of myself – interest, belief, goals, and dreams. Maybe some of you might think that people like me, who intends to seek for happiness are the ones at the losing end as compared to the ones seeking for power and money. Well, maybe I am. But, as long as I am happy and contented, I think I will live a memorable life at the very least. I know I am not realistic. Regardless of what, I want to prove that it's possible to attain things in life without neglecting my stands in terms of love, relationship, family and friends.

A communication degree should be one of the most flexible degrees around. Thus, I am pretty sure I will one day (hopefully soon) discover where I wanna be, what I wanna do, how am I going to do it....... =)

Written today for yesterday

I feel like ideas and thoughts always come in a very unpredictable manner as well as on a very unassuming time. Just this evening as I was sitting on a swing, many things came gushing through my brains. As I try to recollect them now, I feel like I have lost track of the momentum of the whole atmosphere.

It's weird. I mean, me. Ahahhaa..

I think I share some surreptitious conversations with God every now and then. Although, I am not a religious girl, I somehow know that whenever I speak, there is someone out there listening to me. So, I was just merely asking God a few questions and I told him to give me the answers through the songs that I was listening while jogging. Surprisingly, for every question that I asked, God gave me an utterly honest answer. Truth to be told, they were answers that I knew about but afraid to embrace them.

Told you I am weird! Do you people share these sort of conversations with god? Does God gives you answer in return? How do we read the answers that God gave us?


I should so go to bed now....

Oh, I was watching 'Kung Fu Panda' just now. Just a quote from that movie to end this short post.

"Yesterday is history,
Today is a gift
Tomorrow is a mystery"