Because I can't seem to work

I used to think that there is someone supporting me
Encouraging me
I used to be able to dream alot
Without being afraid of dreaming
But lately
I feel scard to dream
To cast all hopes for the future

I used to think that nothing is impossible
But lately
I think certain things are really just impossible
And there are many things that are unexpectable

I used to think less
Well there was a period of time
Where I dare say I was living a care free live
Where worries are at bay
Problems are non-existent
But lately
My heart sees just too many things that I
... I don't know if I used to be blind
Now, my eyes also don't recognise people that I used to anymore
Is there still anyone out there
That i can trust with my heart?

Shooting Stars

There is going to be shooting stars tonight. Just a few weeks ago, I wish that there were shooting stars. Will my wish come true if I were to  make a wish? Just ONE as I am not going to be greedy. I simply have just one wish to make.


 *edit: We stayed up for awhile. Not long enough to watch shooting stars. Sister told me that it happened at 5am. I was soundly asleep already by then. That night however, we saw many airplanes. But, can we really pretend that airplanes are like shooting stars? Just so that we can make a wish. If it's really possible, I would have make many wishes that night at the porch. That night, there were many airplanes ... but no shooting stars. 

A letter to myself

"That's the big mistake a lot of people make when they wonder how soldiers can put their lives on the line day after day or how they can fight for something they may not believe in. Not everyone does. I've worked with soldiers on all sides of the political spectrum; I've met some who hated the army and others who wanted to make it a career. I've met geniuses and idiots, but when all is said and done,we do what we do for one another. For friendship. Not for country, not for patriotism, not because we're programmed killing machines, but because of the guy next to you. You fight for your friend, to keep him alive, and he fights for you, and everything about the army is built on this simple premise. "
— Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)


" Everyday we fight a battle. Every morning when we wake up, we prepare ourselves for that day's war. We don't know what the outcome will be. But, we armed ourselves well enough and we wear our hearts on our shoulders  - we go out to the battle field and give our best. The best war at the end of the day is knowing that you've given your all and expect nothing in return because the best gift is making those who matters felt important and happy. It is a tough war everyday. So, when you wake up in the morning preparing yourself for the war, just go out there and do your best. So when you are lying on your bed at night, you can shut your eyes and tell yourself that you've given all you can for that day and you will do better tomorrow. Tell your heart not to expect anything in return because that's the way you can prepare yourself for the next day war. And, do remember to do better tomorrow. next day. and for the many more days to come. I think it is for as long as you are alive because everyday is about fighting for our loved ones as it keeps us alive."

Shooting stars

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Simple blessings in life

love.faith.hope