Lasso

I tried to hold on to you
Took a turn on a high trapeze swinging over the deep

I thought I could show you

I've always been afraid of flying

But you can't blame a girl for trying

Like a vine bends a tree to the ground

I won't hold you down

I tried to climb just as high

But I found all the clouds touch the ground

In this small town

Took a ride on a high trapeze swinging over the deep

I thought I could show you

That I've always been afraid of flying

But you can't blame a girl for trying

No, you can't blame a girl

It's a busy day at work
For once, or maybe for the 2nd time, I am actually thankful that I am busy
It makes me not bothered about other things
It makes me care less about other things

It's a stressful time
Many things are pilling up

And it makes me question what is doing too much, what is doing to little means
It makes me question again about being too nice and being mean
It makes me wonder what does it mean to give it all
And when should one pull back so that one do not dipped the feet too deep

In the midst of all the craziness
This are my thoughts
Just like the craziness
My thoughts are everywhere and seem no where at the same time

Have you ever asked if your existence matter that much to anyone
Or I am just fighting for myself always
And no one ever fights for me

And to remind myself time and again
Don't be too nice all the time
I will loose it all at the end

Surviving kit for this week

Lyrics: Count on me
Singer: Bruno Mars

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,

I'll sail the world to find you

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,

I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of

When we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2

And you'll be there

Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

If you're tossing and you're turning and you just can't fall asleep,

I'll sing a song beside you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me,

Everyday I will remind you, ohh

A blue device

a blue device
that tells a secret
sits alone
waiting to be discovered
yet it feels like fate
half of the truth
is explained by half of a lie
half of a dream
is answered by half of a reality
half of everything
makes it into one
and it completes unsolved puzzle
the blue device
returned to the rightful owner
unspoken or spoken
half truth half lie
what defines reality

Out of the blue

There are days when you are driving and certain thoughts just strike you and scares you

Then there are minutes in a day that a single text message from someone special can just sweep all worries away

There are also hours where you can spend just doing nothing

Then there are also minutes that we can use to just ask how one is doing

Then there are some people in our lives whom we ranked them as important

There are also some matters in life that we put more effort in taking care of them

At certain point of our lives, we can be lost and found and vice versa

But I think, what matters most is who we are at any given moment in time that is more important. If we know who we are and why we act upon how we chooses to be, I think we will be fine at the end of the day... I guess being honest with oneself is truly important and it is as important as being honest with everyone else around us. I think that the world will be a better place, if there are less pretentious people. People with no hidden agenda  ... people with genuine heart and soul ... I mean if you don't want to do it, then don't do it. If you would love to do it, then do it. If you wish to say it, then say it. If not, then don't say it. I think in that way, this world will be a better place - less lies, less betrayal, more simple joy! we don't really need complicated joy. I think I rather have many easy joys than to earn one complicated joy in life.

Nites to the world that is imbalance. Or maybe I am naive and that the world will never turn out to be how I want or wish it will be.

Maybe I don't make sense to you. But at least I say what I want to say :)

celebrations of the month

Sometimes it is true that I am speechless on why is it you? However over the years, I've learnt that it is a choice I made and I am glad that I choose you. Thank you for all the tiny, small, big or grand things that you have brought to my life :) 

For all that she has done for the family, I sometimes wonder if I can ever be as good as she is. I think she has brought me up to be a fine individual and I will not be who I am today if not for her. I am not perfect but I think I like just the way I am ... not perfect :)